Saturday, November 30, 2013

dire wolf

six hundred pounds of sin, the wolf knocked at my door last friday.  kidney failure is almost as bad as liver.   there was a horrible taste, a horrible smell, nausea, confusion.  I couldn’t eat and I couldn’t sleep.  

but there is dialysis, an alternative and it suddenly seemed wonderful

monday I had a permacath line put in my chest and I went home to wait for my first dialysis treatment on tuesday.  one am i woke bleeding, and meg took me to the ER where i bled slowly all night (bad care).  had my first treatment tuesday morning and felt enormous relief.  back to the hospital they plugged theleak.  now, two treatments later i am feeling much better.  

so now it is 3 hours a day, 5 days a week hooked up to a machine.  meg and I are learning to run the
machine ourselves so we can do it from home.  it is very much like running a physics experiment.
just have to get used to the fact that that red stuff flowing in and out is my blood.  


but it is not time take away.  it is giving.